Cream-O

I am innocent and I will always be.
I am a “virgin” and I decided to be.
I am clean and it is because I chose to be

Drinks…no matter how pleasing the name is, no matter what how you look at it, I can never dare to see you, as heavy drinkers, or light drinkers if you wish, drinking (I suppose) or having plans about drinking.

I haven’t seen any necessary points of dealing with “bottles” as most people in the west call this.

What is its taste anyway? Uh-oh my dear, YOU CAN NEVER MAKE ME DRINK…magkamatayan na, hinding-hindi ako iinom; whether it is just a shot or not. I don’t care; I excuse myself to you upon that situation.

How is it beneficial to a person? Or has it any benefits anyway? A professor said there IS a benefit and it JUST HELPS the dynamics of the heart pump. It is simple as that.

Obviously, I am just another anti-drinking advocate. Not in a sense that I do not drink but because I don’t have the appetite for drinking. It is like that. I really don’t see the point why people engage themselves in this kind of scenario and activity. Only experience tells it all, but what’s the sense of observation?

Things are not necessarily needed to be experienced to tell that it is so on and so forth.

For those drinkers, I don’t have the slightest idea but I try to make it simple, drinking makes them more superior and notorious – just like the engagement in cigarettes. They wanted to look “astig” in some ways, but really, it is different, for so many ways.

Hence, people in these scenes are the ones to be blamed – in the first place, it is those people who will suffer anyway, who will be punished by their own acts and beliefs.

Judge me that I am the “others” among you. Call me boring or what. I DON’T CARE HUMAN but what makes sense is the thought that” I can choose when I can be “dirty” or “well-experienced” or “professional” but I am telling you, YOU CAN NEVER BE LIKE ME ANYMORE — I that is innocent, clean, and well-functioning; I that is not addicted and having a life far away from you.

Your liver is now deteriorating, there will be organ systems dysfunctions and your body is in great degradation. So now, have your shot and enjoy.

You can never be innocent.

You will always be experienced.

You are remained dirty – forever.

I am saying this because this is no fantasy. I am acting like this because I promised to myself that I will never drink. I will never make myself miserable and the like. I will never make myself suffer.

I live a life of happiness – the happiness not found in beers. I find a life – not the ones that would simply end my life.

I cannot be sorry for you. It is your choice either and I will always respect that. Do not even reason out that there is such a word that is “moderation”. There is no moderation in a drinker, once a drinker will always be.

Goodluck…long live

for almost twelve hours of experience on the 13th of Spetember, i had gained things which i can apply to my life, somehow.

psychology 1, under the instruction of Ma’am Leslee Natividad, held their semestral field trip in asscoiation with Brahma Kumaris World Spiritual University (BKWSU). it was held at Brahma Kumaris (BK), 1020 Magallanes Drive, Tagaytay City. there were discussions, spiritual learning and enhancing, that suit the previous topics that we discussed on the past weeks.

i tell you. there were uncertain emotions before and after the trip. there were happiness, silence, sadness. name it; we had it all, i had it all.

first, the moment i knew that we have to have a field trip, there were several things that went to my mind by that. the most dominant feeling there was the feeling of losing responsibilities. second was the moment of enjoyment, and so on.

however, my perception changed the moment i stepped my feet on the venue.

creepy, indeed.
nervous, all throughout.
adjusts slowly in progress.

it took me times to cope with the ambience of the hall, even with the people in the spiritual center. it was true that they were in white robes and very strict [call them "kulto" if you wish]. the place were so solemn and peaceful, for it is that they impose. i can’t explain the exact feeling, i hope you understand.

second was the food! oh dear, i was impressed with the tastes of the delicacies. we had pancit bihon for breakfast and it was definitely delicious, regardless with the fact that they only [or we must] eat veggies, still, it is no doubt tasty. then, we had different types of food served on lunch time. brown rice, menudo [i suppose], laing, and salad for dessert was the food we have to eat. i almost quit in the bell pepper when i don’t like the taste anymore. but i survived. hurray! i don’t usually eat vegetables rather, that’s why it took me time to finish my meal, somehow.

third was the discussions. honestly, the last part of the session in which i am absolutely absent minded, was the most important. i, as far as i can, listened, internalized and applied all the things Sister Salud has taught us [i swear]. it was overhwelming if you are cleansed, refreshed and felt better at the same time. that was the moment in which i found peace in everything; no burdens [yet!], bliss are present, everything changed at that moment! i was happy, in general. it was different among my experience in seek of happiness.

then, aftrer the long hours of spiritual condensation, as i must say it, we went ot mushroom burger. obviously, it is the house of mushrooms. majority ordered mushroom burger for them to try it, or maybe for other purposes. that’s it. but we not stopped there yet.

we had a great view at our last destination which was on picnic groove. so what do we expect here was some of my friends, like Tintin, tried the zipline. everyone, especially me, enjoyed this last part of the trip. it has been grade school since my last trip to Tagaytay City. i missed it. i missed this place alot for this has been one of the places of my chilldhood. this is were i almost spent my summer, christmas and other holidays.

of course, who will never forget the trip inside each van. before the trip, i observed that everyone felt so bored, so on and so forth. we seemed to have no energy at all, except for me and other persons inside. what surprised me was the aftersession in Brahma Kumaris. all felt so alive, energetic, so peaceful [yet loud], ironic but true. we had the same bliss and same feeling of contentment and definition. i was the first one to leave the van, so i have no idea after i dropped by in Paseo de Sta.Rosa. maybe, they have contnued laughing and so on.

alright, too much drama.
in general, the experience was awesome. the food was great (i just imagine myself eating vegetables by now!). the view was unforgettable and the people, especially Psy 1 F1 had made my Sunday happy, peaceful and full of memories to last…forever, perhaps?

ma’am leslee, thank you for this day / for this event. i don’t care if we are about to pass this reflection papaer but what matters most are the learning and experience we had. for now, let’s enjoy, the semester’s gonna end up an di don’t want to miss you…for now. (laughs)

whenever i had time and whenever i feel lonely or doubtful, i’d go back to BK not for other purposes but to unwind.

…and i’ll always remember, as i eat a muffin [or even vegetables], i’d know what it is that i had experienced.

This is supposed to be my Speech Competition piece for the school’s hunt for the batch speakers. Supposedly i haven’t completed the requirement to be accompanied by the hard copy of the speech. Still, i am million percent proud of this piece. So here it goes:

We are the next means of excellence. We are the future symbol of triumph and honor. We are the keys that will soon fit and open close doors. We are now here for we are the next one hundred years of UPLB.

We are about to continue what the late years has contributed to the university. We are the university’s future existence.

We must live up to a tradition of greatness. Let’s touch lives of every individual, community and other institutions; and make a difference in building a better nation.

We mustn’t just fit in, we must stand out! Let us bring greater opportunities, huge innovations and valuable discoveries with excellence.

We must take the leads to success. We are responsible for making the most of this; no one else but the centennial batch of freshmen. Hand in hand and our batch will make it. All in one and sooner we can achieve.

We mustn’t be indecisive. We must do all things right the first time. For so, another hundred years is not far beyond reach.

Now is the time we’ve been waiting for. This is it! Stand out. Be proud! Go and make another hundred years of excellence and service.

Go and make it UPLB @ 200!

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Arms wide open, head up high, bold and consistent.

This is the symbol of freedom, excellence and duty. He is “Oble”: known to be a symbol for an arena where the smartest remains — University of the Philippines (UP).

It took me 14 years before one of my dreams came true – I imagined myself walking on the streets of UP as an ‘iskolar ng bayan’ at ‘para sa bayan’.

On my fifteenth year, I entered the arena.

I knew I belong. The only thing I will always know is my own survival. For the fact that: will I make it or struggle?

“Madali pa ang UPCAT, ang buhay at ang pag-aaral ninyo dito sa UP ang totoong mahirap.” I knew people who also study at UP and it’s really of survival. Very true and striking but I wasn’t absolutely worried by those words; thus, I am encouraged to do better and be better.

The pressure is on. I have relatives who went to UP and it’s already my turn. I dpnt live up someone’s expectation, I have my own standards. I just do my best and it’s up to Him to judge. I’ll do my own job.

However, I am a million percent proud that I will be a fighting maroon (I actually am). “Masasabi mong UP student ka na ‘pag nakakasurvive ka.” Who wouldn’t be so proud if you had already survived? J

Though there are anxieties hanging, I know I can handle this. Quitting is never the answer. Facing the challenges is the answer.

As days go nearer and nearer, it’s time to prepare. It’s time to renew. It’s time to fight.

I will and I can make it, as I always say to myself.

So, let’s see.

Maroons…take the lead.

She left me anxious with hanging burdens ahead. She left me restless with rounds of things unfixed and quite irresolvable. She left me crazy for her. She is irresistibly for keeps.

…but one day, all was left were our short-time memories.

I knew her by the early days of April. I haven’t told anybody about her. Not even a person knew who she is; this could have been my greatest secret ever. But our relationship ended just like a snap.

I imagined being with her, being happy, being me. We were having a great time thinking things for our future. We plan to go to the malls and stay the whole day there, sometimes, read a book together. We have beautiful pictures of things we love to do.

I wonder why things went wrong. All those things we both loved to do seem to be going farther and farther. We were imprisoned on things we did not expect to happen. We did not enjoy. That’s why we ended up nothing. I ended up nothing.

She left me empty-handed.

It’s just so sad that I dreamed maximizing my time for her.

I thought that we could enjoy each day. I thought I could be happy for the months I spent with her. I hoped that this will be my greatest escape. Turned out, I got the most unexpected things indeed.

All through my days I kept myself busy, doing things I usually do. I knew she will never come back. Maybe, next time; but how long?

So days passed and I have given up. I accepted the truth. I can no longer get her back to me anymore. I could no longer do the things I planned to do but I know she will come back, maybe not on my arms but with somebody else.

It’s because, June is coming. He will get Summer by his arms and take it away from me.

That’s life. That’s the truth.

I spent my ‘summer’ with no extravagance: anxieties, household activities, and the like. Now, I don’t have to expect my summer to be very memorable. My summer is normal. Unadorned nothing.

But I enjoyed.

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